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2010-10-21T17:22:00.002+08:00

being in a relationship as well, i know how my fellow friends who's quarreling with their lovelies. and pretending that everything is alright totally sucks, i know. don't you ever get tired of trying to amend and change for the better? why is it damn difficult for us to meet their expectation and vice-versa? sometimes, this feelings are accidental. not what we had planned. and its tiring why we girls have to cry to release the broken heart. haiz.

now, you! you who had said wanted to change. to start anew. to treat each other better. to talk to each other nicely. where have it all gone to? is it wrong if i said .. words no action? yes, you better buck up honey. and p/s: i cant control my feelings. therefore don't get upset with me if i have unwanted emotions.

but whatever it is. the feeling of love. devoted. and never wanting to let go always lingers.. in my mind.. and in my soul..

2010-10-13T22:56:00.003+08:00

after the long and hectic arguments we had. after wetting my cheek, we finally came to a point where there is no use in all this stupid arguments because there's only one reason why we still bother to be by each side till now; we love each other.

he wanted to start afresh. and i wanted it too. i wanted it too long ago. i wanted it badly. and now, i guess it's time to amend our ways. my way-if it's considered as my fault. whatever it is, im glad he wanted a fresh start.

so far so good. hunnie is being supper swiit yesterday. and he bought me the VS beg that i wanted. thank you darling. i love you. (and not just bcause you bought me the beg ok!)

now, there's thousand hopes, dreams and wished.

2010-10-06T14:49:00.003+08:00

it's already October. and school is starting soon. -.- the last term for my ITE life, hopefully. results will be out tomorrow. and i hope not to repeat the stupid modules. and hopefully, my GPA will increase! (okei, that's alot of hope in this para)

so anyway, im saving hard to get the iphone 4! baby had his which obviously makes me suuuppeerr jealous~ !

2010-09-16T18:32:00.003+08:00

alright. after sooo long of not getting the network from my house. after a few pull wire, on and offing the damn modem, i finally get to go online!!!!

so anyway, raya without ayah feels so weird. like totally. we didnt wear the same baju on the first day of raya cause wanna wait for ayah. hehehe. now he's home! and finally we can wear same same colour on this coming weekend. (:

yesterday was the fifteen of september. boyfriend and i have spend and will continue spending our time together. it had been 4 years. how fast. didnt bought anything special tho. just a baju kurung for raya. cause he wasnt feeling the raya fever. and i want him to feel it. since he didnt buy any new baju kurung for himself this year, i bought him one. (: the same colour as mine. how swiit. :P

i have ALOT to do online. so i shall go off now ! (: bye~

2010-09-01T15:01:00.002+08:00

school already starts. and worst is.. exam is in two weeks time. yes, during raya. this year puase doesnt really feel anything. the raya fever is also not here yet. how come ar? alhamdulillah i managed to puase full this month. (: let's wait up till the end of the month.

did my hair yesterday. so now it's rebonded. thought of highlighting but then after second thoughts, i dont wanna waste my money on my hair just like that. maybe ill highlight next month or something.

since ibu had already started working, im the one doing the chores. and i have to move around the tables and chairs. just put up the curtains. lay the carpets. it's only left with decoration. ill leave that to mother jane. lols. and thanks mia for helping me around the house. (:

i dont have anythign to say. besides that my exam is coming soon and i need to buckup on my studies. ergh!

2010-08-22T22:46:00.002+08:00

we are having our hols cause of the YOG. but sad to say, i didnt even chance upon a game. ZERO!

anyways. been wanting to study for the semester exam but i always woke up late. and when i woke up, i need to tutor my siblings. and after which its nearly buka time. night time, aspernormal, work or slack. so i dont think this holiday is worthwhile lor!! im a dead meat once school reopens. there goes my maintaining top in class. lols.

yesterday, well more of today if you considered 6am as today, i sort of let out half of my emotions to my other half. happen to be im so fucking fucked up by his fucklatish attitude. but i feel bad tho. dont care! he is still and will always be the idiot laa~!

ergh, off to play warcraft, byes!

2010-08-16T02:35:00.002+08:00

it's the fifteen today. or if you consider 2 am as sixteen. haha. boyfriend and i have another month to go till we reached our 4 years. i admit there is ALOT of ups and downs. and no matter what, we will always be okei with each other after awhile. maybe its because we're too close to know that either one of us is angry because of either (a) a stupid habit or (b) we care for one another.

it tooks me a couple of times where i say "that;s it. i had enough" and it also took him a couple of "you've gone beyond the line, we're over" and yet again, we'll always be together again. always. and that makes me love him.

there are a few occasions where he said i practically only look at his bad side. and not the good side. but honestly, how i wish i could shout out loud " i love you sharul izuan" go around and nudge people and say "hey, i have the best boyfriend anyone could have!" but he seems not to realise that. oh well, human being.

so basically what im trying to say is that. i hope our relationship will last till our marriage and then after till our last breathe. i dont think ill ever be the girl i am not if it wasnt for him. and therefore, i love him alot. there's is no word that can express my internal feelings.

if you're reading this baby, i love you. happy 3 years and 11 months (and erm, 1 day?)

2010-08-05T12:11:00.002+08:00

i've decided to cut my hair a little bit more shorter. and i think it sucks for the first 2 days. however now, i think im okei with it. i'm still unsure if i wanna rebond it. cause, i love my curly hair. dilema sia.

and i think i havent say anything about my license. :D I PASSED!

okei i am happy about it. however, it sucks when mother kept being bothered about parking whenever im out with the car. buat ape ade kete kalau tak bawa kelua kan? buat jerok. padahal everytime i bring car ill topup. -.-

whatever it is, i think it's only because im still a freshy. maybe she'll be okei in a few months from now. let's just hope so, alright.

i tried baking/making cheesecake. first try was unsuccessful cause the toppings melts although it was placed in the fridge. however, the second try, power! but i still need to improve on the crush. brought to school to let bestfriends try. and they love it. (: making again this sunday!

skipped school today. first, most of the lessons are lecture. secondly, if i were to go to school now, it will only be for an hour. thirdly, CA finish already what!!

actually, i have nothing much to update really. haha.

2010-07-21T23:28:00.003+08:00

it's hard to even believe that what you're staying is true. and the fact that you've been telling lots of lies had made me lost a little bit of trust on you. what makes it more worst, with your friend being there by your side. no matter when or where. what an irritating pest.

on a brighter note, i shall keep my head high and sounds as if im not even actually interested in what he said. well, i dont know why but the word "kahwin" came out. oh hello, i know you're not ready and neither do i. i wanna get my diploma and a degree insya'Allah. i wanna have enough savings before even think of getting married. and to think of losing anything, i am not. and i shall not. even if there is. i will not. no not even a little bit. okei maybe a little.

for all i care, now, you're the reason im breathing. and you're the reason why i am looking forward for my future. you're the reason why i want to get the car license fast. you're the reason why i studied hard. and you're the reason that i actually think of continuing school and get my diploma. to be honest, sometimes i felt like giving everything up.

thanks to you.

2010-07-19T09:11:00.004+08:00

OMG. there is one very important thing that i forgot to tell.

MY ROOM IS CHANGED, AGAIN!!!!!

need some covering. this explains the messy white walls.

now that everything is covered, it will be much much easier to paint the colour desired. so here it goes.

now that i've painted it, the walls are ready for spraypainting. and here is what my fabulous cousin did to my wall. :D

2010-07-19T09:04:00.002+08:00

haiz.. im having stomach cramp. dont tell me my mothly cycle is coming up. gees, so not the right time seyy!

i dont know if this is a good idea. me and mia sleeping with jointed bed. cause im having blueblacks all around my body. i suspected she hit me while sleeping. however, ibu said it might be of a different cause and asked me to close the windows while sleeping. -.- you know i know what she mean yeah?

i dont know how the hell are we gonna hand up our project today cause it i obviously not completed! and we already had minus 10 marks. i dont know if we will even score well. let's just hope everything is going just fine. (:

ms ida is giving back our PM1 project. it's last year's project. ill definately post it here. (: wait for it aite?

okeilaa im off to the bathroom. need some extra shavings and scrubbings. :P

2010-07-18T12:27:00.002+08:00

hey. this few weeks had been a hectic week. projects need to be complete. CA coming up. the reason why this blog is actually neglected.

projects; well, aspernormal, we sort of quarrel. over stupid stuff, to be frank. it takes a teamspirit to be in a team. and therefore, we loose that factor over some stupid shits.

my tp is coming up. omg. im so nervous. if only i have thousand of dollars, i would have book my prectical lesson everyday for that one week. hehehe.

currently at work. will be working till 8pm. ergh, 5 more hours to go. lucky got activation. this pay is below target and below expectation. there goes my shopping list. -.- it's okei. next month will have to work extra hard.

i dont understand what's up with girls. i dont know if its me or is it them being overly sensitive. even when i said i have no grudges on them or somewhat liek that. it takes a little misunderstanding to destroy everything. and now, it feels so awkward whenever we're facing each other. eventho i tried my best to talk. gees. im lucky i have one bestfriend who actually knows how i am and doesnt take my words too seriously. and obviously cared alot for me. tho we never get the chance to meet daily weekly or monthly, she and i know, we are friends forever.

boyfriend and i have been going just fine. apart from our daily fights. well, that will only make us love each other more. :D i thank god that im not having any major arguments that will only lead to next thing or another; break up. another 2 months and there goes another year with the love of my life. i love you sharul izuan. with all my heart. :D

that's DOPE!

2010-06-26T14:49:00.004+08:00

school holiday is ending soon. haven't do single thing about TPD project. shit.

im still thinking of cutting my hair further. scary leh. chis.

actually, really, i have nothing to say.

okei maybe i shall post new words i've learned. (:

let's start the first lesson with: DOPE

1. thick liquid or pasty preparation

2. an absorbent material used to absorb and hold a liquid

3. a.varnishlike products for coating a fabric, in order to make it waterproof, stronger, etc.

4. any illicit drug.

5. given to a horse to improve its performance in a race.

6. information: What's the latest dope about the Wall Street?

7. a stupid person: That bimbo is so dope!

8. soda pop

9. syrup used as a topping for ice cream. (link with number 1)

10.figure out: to dope out a plan or to dope out a solution to a problem.

that's all from me. stay tune for more words.

(special thanks to hotforwords and also dictionary.com)

2010-06-25T01:00:00.002+08:00

IN THE MOOD OF GREEAASSEE !

2010-06-25T01:00:00.001+08:00

HE IS A FUCER.

2010-06-23T17:40:00.004+08:00

my plan on cutting like helle berry was postponed. because im a scardy cat! shut up alright. which girl who has kept her hair super long and suddenly cut that damn short? so i basically cut shoulder length first. end of this month, ill try cut a little more shorter. im just scared that i look super hideous in short hairs. but liek sharul says.. kalau da burok macam mane pon, tetap burok. hahaha~

with the help of kak iqah, she actually crop my face and insert it to helle berry's short hair. and how do you think i look? heheh~

will be working later on at 8pm. luckily is will be fetching me. pheww! :P

2010-06-19T13:24:00.000+08:00

another day of glee

2010-06-19T12:34:00.004+08:00

have i mention that im so addicted to "Glee" that i watched everyday, morning before going to work and also after work? it just reminds me how much i wish to sing. i wanna sing, know what i mean? but it's just that i dont know how to control my speeches and stuffs. -.-

her hair makes her look super sexy and i wanna have her hair. but the thing is that. im too timid to cut my current long curly hair. what if my hair merajok and never grow again? like lyn's? NNOOO!! so i was thinking of cutting it bit by bit. maybe trim a lil every month until after raye or maybe after graduation. everybody wants to look good on graduation okei. don't tell me you don't. then that's a lie. *roll eyes*

mr jellyfish is okei i guess. we fight less this days. and i hope it stays that way. anyway, im busy with work. so i guess that helps in avoiding unnecessary arguments and tempers between us. but no doubt, he looses his cool way to easily. *roll eyes*

hope to update again. so busy lately. haiz. i miss my friends.

2010-06-09T02:07:00.002+08:00

holiday coming in few days time. wee ! actually, there's nothing to be excited about. 0.o for all i know, ill be working my ass out for the first week.

yes, it's super irritatign when we're on a conversation when suddenly someone calls to have a chat. i was asked to sleep first ! what an ass. didnt call for a long time, so there's pirority ha? maybe i shall do like that. maybe for holidays when im working daily. not putting any space for you! HA!

i wanna watch nightmare on elm street and also the last song. and also ECLIPSE ! all time favourite twilight saga. *BIMS!*

nothing to say really. only that im feeling hungry. *ergh!*

2010-06-07T19:16:00.001+08:00

even if you don't need me, i need you. please. stay.

2010-06-07T15:29:00.001+08:00

im confuse. do you really mean what you said?

2010-06-07T14:30:00.001+08:00

when i said 'i leave it to you', what i mean is 'i want you to reconsider'.

2010-06-07T07:44:00.000+08:00

having a fever. haiz. this is all YOUR fault.

2010-06-07T07:38:00.002+08:00

" i will be with you if you are a mute..".."cause you words hurt"

how hurtful can a sentence be? didnt he realised that his words are thousand times more hurtful? i didnt call him names. im not rude to him. so i dont get the bloody idea of why he is more hurtful then i am. oh, because i said he's cheating on me? anybody would think so when you privatised your blog and decided to not give the password right?

i remembered when he used to not having any, he uses mine. how come i didnt ignore him when he asked for my password just like how he's ignoring me? cause i know ive nothing to hide!

the a mnth plus in hospital is a waste of time. i could simply come once or twice a week but i came everyday, morning, break(afternoon) and night~ and he is simply ignorant of this.

im not showing his bad side. obviously, his good side are too much to mention.

if only he knows that i trully love him.

2010-06-06T17:57:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder.. what are you hiding from me..

do i have to know only at the very end?..

is it like previously?

2010-06-05T23:27:00.001+08:00

"Love is happiness given back and forth."

2010-06-05T23:22:00.002+08:00

went for an interview just now. she said she really like me. 0.o she goes to the extend of allowing me to pay installment of $50 per month and when i said it's too much for me. she down it futhur to $20 per month! now, i dont know if i should go for it. maybe after i clear my license first. so many things on money that i have to think about. haiz.

a picture of me and baba when we went out together on the 03 june. (:

2010-06-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

least you could say is 'dont worry, i got your back' not a simple 'oh.' -.-

2010-06-02T20:28:00.003+08:00

guess what?! I PASSED MY FTT!! woots woots. TP is next month and hell i need to practice. dont know if i will have enough time cause money plays a big part yaw.

@ home, everything is going berseck (however it is spelled). mia uses the house phone to topup her hp. well that doesnt really matter. but what matters is that she topup-ed to $105 in a month time. even i, using bill, do not spend that much! and what makes it worst is that she topup-ed for another 2 of her friends. funny thing is that one is currently overseas while another one simply don't want to pick up our calls after getting to know of the situation. what could i say, coward. he simply told another friend that it is because he had helped mia topup once before. and according to mia, he lied. he never did topup-ed for her. 0.0 now im confused. now that ayah is home from work, it's going to be another big hoo haa. shit.

im speeceless cause i simply can't say anything. it just hurt me when i see ibu cried. she called me just to let it off her chest. and she cried when she was praying. it really shows me how heartbroken she is.

its kindda true when she said mia is like stealing from her. cheating her money, shall i say this way? and when she's telling me her situation, fir make a scene by throwing something on our photo frame so the mirror crash. another heartbrake. haiz.

i dont know what i can do to make her feel better.

2010-06-01T11:17:00.000+08:00

she's so hot.

2010-06-01T11:11:00.002+08:00

taxation test on thursday was easy. but the accounts paper is damn hard. tell me about it. 0.O

today will be taking my final theory test! while im doing the elearning, i dozzed off quite alot of time. so how to study? hahaha. will try again later. 0.-

not having money and transport is an issue. haiz.

2010-05-30T18:43:00.002+08:00

if there's one thing im asking for from you is to give me a little respect. to respect my pride. to treat me with respect.

this is not the first time and i know if we continue, this isn't going to be last either.

i realised that im putting a waste of energy in this relationship cause you dont bloody care. you can't be bothered anymore.

CA1

2010-05-27T08:33:00.003+08:00

hey! morning!

since i now own a laptop. i am able to update my blog more regularly then usual. oh yes, ive said it. i got the lappy! its pink and im lovin' it.

CA1 taxtation is today. but im having a very bad headache. blame the weather! gees, if today i cant answer the questions, im damn stupid. cause taxtation chapter 1 and 2 is so far the easiest chapter that you could score. insyallah, ill get full mark. IF i dont have any stupid errors.

CA1 accounting will be next coming Monday. tell me about it. and i have to spend my weekends working! stupid Azhari. came late for an hour and he took advantage of me asking me to work long hours this fri sat and sun. what an ass.

FTT is next tuesday!!! can you believe it?! it is so fast! it's like i just said im enrolling yesterday. hahaha. since i didnt go for etrial, i tried alot of online qns. hopefully it will help. not to worry. im going etrial this coming mon and tues at 3 before my FTT at 4. hehehe. blaja last minute? no no, sorry. it's called revision. (:

i know ive gone super bored with plain entries and no pikas. ill try again the next entry alright. prolly tonight. or tmr. depends.

bye~!

2010-05-12T09:38:00.002+08:00

for some reason, i actually stop blogging and twitting. basically, it's because my mozilla firefox was down so i had to uninstall it. and temporarily, i had to use internet explorer which i dont really favour, dont ask me why.

anyway, life has been great, i guess. alot of things are happening. im in year 2. in another 10 months, ill be graduating. and insyallah, off to poly. studies have been super sucky cause all my module teachers are like bochup. not interested, its your problem. true enough. ill always get serious for the first 15mins or so. and once im distracted, that's it. or for some reasons.. mas and aikha will be like. . "lily, nak go toilet?" or "lily, aku lapa laa. yok pergi cafe 2" and he stupid will say " JOM!" -_-

my driving lessons have been great. superbly great and im sad cause there's no slot now. tengoklaa, bile ade duit, takde slot. biler ngah kering, slot hari2 ade! im already done with module two. and my FTT is this 1st june and i swear im not ready!! nonsense laa seyy... i learning auto but FTT die die must know about manual shits. GE-RATE! ayah has been pestering me to pass cepat cepat. i dont know what is his reasons but i definately feel he have something in mind. confirm lazy to drive already. and yeah, maybe he is bored sending me to work. :-P i manje what, what to do?

boyfriend progression has been very very good, alhamdulillah. he is able to bend his leg and hopefully his bone are grown fully, insyallah, so he dont have to go through another operation next month. i pity him alot cause he needs to undergo alot of surgeries and operations. ): get well soon hunnie!

since my blog is getting super dusty and erm.. wordy(is there such a word?) i am going to change few stuffs here. well, i know i did said something similar at the previous post. haha!

here from me soon! (:

2010-04-12T09:58:00.002+08:00

i just realised that i looked super scary, i.e vampire in this picture

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2010-04-12T09:52:00.003+08:00

school starts today. & the first day starts at freaking 11am. i hate it when school starts late. the laziness will kick in, knowwhatmasaying?

anyhoo, yesterday didnt get a nice sleep. ): ive been doing alot of thinking. and the feeling of letting it go is so depressing cause i know i cant. cause i need it. i prayed alot to the One to ask for patience and for treatment received to change. but i guess God is not listening to me.

i think i just need to be more patience. so im the one who need to give in, ha?

fuck my life.

2010-04-10T14:26:00.002+08:00

on a brighter note, yesterday was my first drive out. its superbly fun. minus the part where i asked the instructor if its possible to stop at a petrol kiosk cause i cant hold on to my bladder any longer. :P super malu okei! however, i had fun, that's more important. next prec will be next wednesday and i cant wait~ thanks baby for the money.

2010-04-10T14:23:00.004+08:00

know by the terms "you need two hands to clap" . well, i cant put it that you didn't offer a hand. you did. to some extend. and i feel that it's not fair for me to go with the flow. i dont know what to do, really.

2010-04-05T23:50:00.002+08:00

looking at how happy atok was when he was allowed to go home for a day makes me smile inside. he seems happy to see that his first eldest grand-daughter got engaged. i hope he will be able to see me get hitched too.

anyway, the feeling of not having any money sucks alot. basically its because i think i used it un-wisely. (is there even such a word?) i mean.. if i stop using my handphone i basically will have that extra money. but my line got unlimited sms and free incoming okei. i just dont get it why i call out. -_- got to stop it man. but im the type where i can't tolerate people who do not reply my messages. so ill tend to call out. get it? chis. maybe i have to put my hp away.

work had been such an idiot. next what? not able to put on ACW unless anything related to work. well. i got quick freaked-out when workplace started spot-checks on those with handphone in our pocket. so where are we now? SECONDARY schools? gosh the system sucks. i need to find a new job.

Yamma

2010-03-31T14:41:00.002+08:00

i went thru my blog just now. and see how i neglect my blog terribly. i update once in a blue moon padahal last time i always update, almost every day. lol. been busy laa *coughmacmcoughpahamcough*

anyways, i got my results today. and im super disappointed i got 2.865 points. unlike the previous 3.333. well, it's true that my attendance played a lot cause i've been skipping lessons/schools since baby's accident. however, yana bersyukur dapat naik second year. (: Insya'Allah this coming year tak *ehem* cabot skola lagi.

i just got my pay today and i've finished everything cause i need to settle some stuffs. takpe takpe duit senoman masok aku enjoy! hehe.

i wanna bring baby to 18chief cause that had been our favourite makan place since the 3rd year anni. oh how i miss jalan2ing with him. know what, this actually determines me to get my license ASAP. next week is BTT and hopefully i passed. kalau tak pass tatau ape nak cakap (cause alot ckp sng)

i really need to change the skin. damn~

I love Sharul Izuan.

2010-03-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

bf and i always quarrel about a guy, basically, any guy. short tall macho kental. whatever. cause they add me on FB, friendster, wherever. and the argument will start cause i accepted them. it's not like im so attached to them and ill run away from mr bf right. well know what's ironic? he opened a FB account. kononnyer nak berbual ngan kawan, main game, etc. when he actually had been using my FB to do all those. he accepted this girl. and when i asked who is she and if he knows her. he actually said to me "tak..muke kental kan..asal you banyak tanye? you takot i lari kat die? i got better taste.." wah ceyy.. part aku, macam2 siol. part dier. babi nyer setan.

2010-03-17T11:45:00.003+08:00

yesterday, he said he dont wanna fight anymore. know what's ironic about it? we will end up arguing later on. but yesterday's talk was fun cause he told me alot of stories on his childhood times. and his primary school friend is still his friend now.. what about me? i only have certain friends from primary school. well there could be a logical reason behind this. 1. i transfered to tampines primary only when im p5. 2. my previous primary school is at hougang. so it's like 2 different areas!

but im glad i still have my primary school bestfriend: Faizah.

2010-03-16T22:30:00.001+08:00

please tell me why is it so hard for me to let go?

2010-03-15T21:58:00.002+08:00

you know what hurt you most? it's when someone you totally cared and loved said that you're fucking stupid. you're brains are dead. and you're thinking is like the total opposite of your fucking age. you know the feeling of frustration and the anger that makes you wanna punch every single fucking thing on this planet? and knowing that after doing so much, it is still not the best for them, it is totally fucking annoying.

you know how i feel? if you dont, too bad for you.

i really regret staying everyday accompanying when there's nothing to accompany about. cause they bloody hell have lots of fucking fun at night. why should i bother?! why should i even care? if it's because we're bloody tied together, i want the string to be cut. it fucking hurts to be so tight too you.

you know about the things they can and the things we cant? it's bothering me so much. i want to really stop listening to them. why should i? why can't i stay late? why can't i club? why can't i wear sexy clothes to doll myself up? why can't i put on a thick makeup? do i really look fat to you? why are you not appreciating me? how come what you want is always OK and what i always want is KO? and why do i even bother listening?

for fuck sake. im tired. tired of all this bullshit.

2010-03-09T12:54:00.002+08:00

im super sorry for the boring posts. its because i just dont get it why my phone cant be connected to the computer. haiya, ill figure it out soon.

monday had writting for business exam. did in 1 hr. not so difficult unlike today's service excellence paper. damn hard. dont think ill pass it. ): left with one more paper before i can enjoy myself. (: tomorrow intermediate accounting paper must must must do well. im gonna be super disappointed if i didnt get A cause i've been studying for this paper real hard. helping zul and mas. there's only one problem tho. i cant seem to remember the horizontal's layout!!

got to go now. meeting mas and zul for our group study session. -_________- so secondary school period.

2010-03-08T10:23:00.002+08:00

atok is super cute. he tells people stupid excuses to make people believe that it wasnt him who pull the tube which was inserted to his nose.

#01 excuse.
he said that when he sneeze, the tube came off. but by the fact that the tube is all the way down to the stomach, IT OBVIOUSLY IS NOT POSSIBLE. hehe.

#02 excuse.
he said that someone came and pulled it off. when i asked him "so who pulled it?" he said "it was the.. ermm.. (i think he's thinking of ideas) the pontianak!" so i investigate him somemore and he make cock and bull stories saying that the pontianak fell and he wanted to helped but the pontianak laughed. so he got scared. he even said that the pontianak has a long nail. hehehe.

as you know. this is the period where everything at the back of his memory box came blurting out. and he suddenly said "bukit timah." so ibu asked him "why at bukit timah? got scandal ar?" then he said "no laa." then ibu asked "oh you know whats scandal?" he laughed and said "matae".. hahaha!

nenek came and told us what happened the day before. she went to visit atok but didnt saw atok anywhere except for his bed. you know the bed can adjust the seating and leg to bring up and stuff. so he tangan gatal go press the kaki make go up. but the funny thing, he didnt know how to make it back down. cik nah came running to help him. and now, he knows how to make it back down. and while nenek is telling us the story he kept laughing non-stop. and i love the way he laugh.

doctor said atok's inner strength is super powerful cause he has the willpower and really wants to get well. imagine that from a 87 year old. so, she decided to transfer atok to st andrew to get him doing the therapies and all.

talking about therapy. baby is yet to go for his therapy. takot berkarat plak sampai bile2 tak bleh jalan. )):

atokku sayang

2010-03-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

this post is a copy of kak yana's notes. everything that have to be said had been said by this.

"

To My Favourite Man... My Charismatic Atok

Today at 12:18pm

atok kater nk tgk yana naik pelamin dulu... hang on ok..?

@ last a smile from my fav man (:

Dear Atok,

i know ur health isnt at its peak nowdays. to know that u r suffering really breaks my heart. u have been the ideal man. my rock, my strength, my saviour.

my 1st memory of u have been an everlasting one. i was only 3 or 4, & yet i know how much u love & treasure me. u bought a toy car which i can peddle around the house. u carried it all the way. i appreciate the gesture so much... although i was too young to show my gratitude, i hope the hug i gave u was enough.

thank u for all ur advises on how i must grow up to be a good daughter, daughter-in-law & wife. u taught me patience & appreciation for all the little things i have. i am so blessed to be your 1st born grandchild.

i know i havent exactly been a great grand daughter to u. i wish i can turn back time and spend more quality time with u. if i were given a chance, i`ll bring u all over, & proudly say "yeah man..he's my man! my atok!"

i will never forget the conversation we had. when u said ur last wish is to see me on the pelamin right? well i know i wasnt realli getting married lah. but i took a photo on wani's pelamin. :p

when u said u were proud of me, on what i`ve become.. i have never felt better abt myself. after u saw Saidy, u whispered to me : "jage laki nye baik2. atok doakan yana bahagia slalu dgn suami nye. tgk budak nye mcm baik. harap2 dia tau jage yana dgn baik " even when ur demented, u still wan the best for me...

pls don go off too soon... just hang on.. @ least until the 4th of april. i`ll make u proud...

i promise i`ll take care of Abah & Mummy..as well as Ibah & Hafeez. at least if u wanna go, u`ll have the assurance...

i have been so blessed to have u as my grand daddy. love u...
"

2010-03-03T22:56:00.006+08:00

so many things happen within a few weeks. and it seems ages since i update this blog. there is so much i wanna talk about.

firstly, my birthday was okei i guess. met up with sharul. which i met up with abng naz and kak iqah. didnt had any party. if only sharul was alright. anyways, sharul bought me a VeraWangPrincess Fragrance set. Mumi bought me a jewellery set. Family bought me a hairclip and kak iqah bought me a bracelet. Abang Naz bought me alot of food. ((: THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES !

i enrolled for car license. and it's so far till my BTT! gone for 1st prec. and it was fun! targetting to get my license by aug. and mastura and i will be going for our precs together in may. so fun kn? k diam.

next, im so tired after 4 days of busy-ness. k bedek actually aku tak busy, mak makcik aku yang busy. hehe. but anyhow,

CONGRATULATIONS WANIE AND SABRI FOR THEIR WONDERFUL WEDDING.

Dear Allah, may the two of them lives happily until Syurga. guide them thru if ader tersenget sikit. semoga ke anak cucu laa .

~Selamat..Pengatin baru.. ~ *nyanyi the famous song with me everybody(kalau tatau lagu mane, call me, ill guide you along. hehe)*

next, kak ayu's (sharul's cousin) baby popped out on tuesday morning. and her name is Maia Ad something. she is supa cute !

dan's out and he visited sharul just now. after the forever gado with sharul because of just random questions on dan, he got so fucking worked up. stupid asshole. anyway, dan is super kurus laa okei! the way he speaks and laugh is still the same tho.

and his fucking ex girlfriend missed called him yesterday night. and i didnt even blame him for her calling. all im mad about is she calling sharul for dan. fuck laa. kau nak cari dan cari tmpt lain laa. kau pk sharul tau segale-galenyer pasal dan kepe popan? dan ade satu kawan jekk pe? musibat nyer sundal haram. geram siiak aku.

atok is in the hospital again. this time round, it's stroke. it's so sad to him weaker then yesterday. aspernormal, his hands were tied. it makes me so so sad as his eyes were always in tears. i really wanna help him. i massage his hands and legs hoping it can move again. atok, please get well soon. i love you. ):

and on some random note, i miss my friends alot. ):

2010-02-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 5 MORE DAYS!?

2010-02-16T13:53:00.002+08:00

after spending 39 days at the hospital, sharul is finally able to go home last friday. it's very much to our surprise as the doctor estimated 3 months stay in the beginning. Alhamdulillah.

im pretty upset that he did not want to drink the pollene drink or even the gamat drink. it's like he is not helping himself. URGH.

yesterday had a picnic with dear family. was okei. didnt had much fun cause basically im in the monthly girl mood swing. and i ws super tired cause i only got to sleep like 4plus in the morning and had to wake up 9plus. yeah.

i am quite confused on why mother got pissed off when i said im going over to his place. and when i said im doing his dressing, she asked if im a nurse. kalau nak mara pasal everyday i go over tu, zero jekk. if it is because i didnt do any chores also, bedek nah. if pasal i everyday go home late.. maybe. but kak iqah said she's seeking my attention. for what?! haiya..

so i say we have to chill alright baby?

this sunday is my birthday, and i have no plans. zero. haiyo!

Day 35

2010-02-09T08:17:00.002+08:00

baby is still in the hospital. still trying to learn how to walk. hopefully everything is going to be just fine. i see improvements in his grafting tho. im also able to put the olive oil myself. not disgusted. kuddos!

jack, his physiotherapist, said today he will need to try to walk for 10 mins using the crutches. and jack said 10 mins is not even long enough?!

anyway, my birthday is in 12 more days. like every year i have a LOOONG list of birthday wishes. this year, i wanna make it simple. i just want baby to get well soon and me, get my driving license soon. that's all im asking for. (:

somebody is gonna be HERE soon. and im.. not...R..E..A..D..Y..maybe i should start getting ready now?

2010-01-31T14:59:00.000+08:00

i hate you.

Day 19

2010-01-24T01:52:00.001+08:00

he is still very weak and look pale. what makes me even sadder was that he is always active, never this weak. it hurts so much. if there's any possibility, i would really wanna take half of his pain so he dont have to hurt that bad. ):

motivations and encouragements have never been forgotten by me. or shall i say, us, his family and friends. something, some voice in me says that he's going to be okei. he's strong. all it takes is self-determination. determination to recover. determination to sit up, stand up and walk. i know he can. i know he will.

recover fast ba. i miss those times alot.

Day 17

2010-01-22T16:34:00.002+08:00

after 14hours of waiting, doctor finally called to say he's out of operating theater. ibu and i rushed to hospital. it's so sad to see him damn weak. he's on oxygen and he had to take in blood. he speaks ever so softly such that i miss his scoldings.

sad thing, he not only have to bare the pain from his leg. but his stomach too. ):

got to go, off to hospital again. ):

Day 13

2010-01-18T22:40:00.002+08:00

things have been quite well, i guess. Baby is going to the operation theater again to change his dressing. His swollen legs are reducing tremendously. Im so proud of him. He is super duper strong and is super excited for operations cause he said it would make him feel much better.

Pollene has been his daily intake. well, cause ill merajok if he decided not to drink it up. besides that, mumi also forced him to take the gamat jelly. and dadi side bought his ginseng for him to eat. and the ginseng smells terrible! and banyak pulak tu! eew, disgusting. if everything went well, infections all gone, doctors will be inserting the metal inside baby's leg. then, it's left for physiotherapy. Insya'Allah.

a new patient came in and slept beside him. he is sort of a psycho. he snort and snores and smiles all the time. baby even forced me to pull half of the curtain and asked me to seat the other side just so as not to be near the new patient. wahaha!

alright, until my next update. nights (:

p/s: damn, tomorrow have to go to some stupid singapore city gallery for i dont know what fuck. -_-

Day 7

2010-01-12T23:28:00.004+08:00

today, i made a card and gave it to him. i add an inspirational quotes to it. and decided that i should give him this kind of cards often to motivate him to be strong and recover fast. and he said i kental. so not appreciative. *roll eyes* padahal swiit cume he shy to say.. :P

today's quote;

Hold on to your positive attitude
And when things get hard to bear
Know that we are here for you
Remember that we care.

tomorrow will be his third operation. i pray for the very best. Insya'Allah the doctor will get all his broken bones and all the dirt or infection out. Insya'Allah the doctor will go out of the operation theater with a smile that will lighten our heavy chest which is full of worries and concerns.

2010-01-10T23:05:00.004+08:00

baby looks better now after his second operation. he can even pose and all. (:

the bad news is that, this is not the end of his operation moments. upcoming operation will be on wednesday. ): i just pray for the best.

im actually disturbed by the fact that someone from the same ward bed 09 passed away yesterday. he was coma for 2 weeks i think. its motor accident as well. when baby was in for his second operation, we were with the arwah's family. so, yeah. im damn shocked when i saw them all in tears.

2010-01-07T23:44:00.004+08:00

im going through this slowly. and patiently. i hope i encouraged him enough to stay strong and believe in himself that HE can survive this nightmare.

sometimes i imagined the worst that could happen to him and tears start to roll. im just so glad that i did not lose him. he is still alive and im just .. im speechless.

it hurts sometimes when he asked if im going to leave him and stuff since he can't walk normally and all. it just didn't occurred to me that he thinks that way cause that have never come across my mind. i will never ever leave him.

i love you ba. please recover fast.

2010-01-05T23:42:00.001+08:00

BABY, PLEASE GET WELL SOON. PLEASE BE STRONG. PLEASE.

2010-01-04T07:33:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL REOPEN, damn~

2010-01-02T13:08:00.000+08:00

cock-up plans.
sucks!

2009-12-25T15:32:00.027+08:00

just like last year, im going to briefly highlight what's up with the year monthly. (:

JANUARY

the very first hour of 2009, i am with Sharul. we got free ticket to the new year celebration. and the show wasn't that fun. -_-

it's also the first day of school for Firdaus @ Tampines Primary School. woke up damn early just to take photo of him. LOL!

im still working at Sistic with Atira. So much fun when we went to work together and go home together. Escape from callfloor and took illegal breaks. (:

and Kallang is where i saw.. TAUFIK !!! when i was on my an hour break. ((:

the colour people also performed their Rainbow's Ending at the Arts House. Wyman, Imran, Rusydi and myself settled ourselves at this Thai restaurant cause we can't find any better place to find a drink. it cost $10+ per drink lor !

also, had picnic with ex-schoolmates.

and picnic with family.

photo of myself with Mia, Sharul & Mona. (:

FEBRUARY

it's the best momments cause firstly, ibu agreed to take care of Amni. Secondly, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! *it's my birthday, we gonna party like it's my birthday!*

i also had to redo my IC cause i lost my wallet!! damn Sistic. ):

went out with Sharul's friends to celebrate dZul's, fit's & alan's birthday

MARCH

celebrated Sharul's & Atira's Birthday by going to Sentosa to watch Songs of The Sea. (: then we went over to town to eat at swensen. Planned by Taufik and myself. (:

also celebrated Fir's birthday ..

And finally, Kak Illa's birthday. planned by Wani (: She looked damn suprised when she saw us. Waka!

and Amni is starting to crawl . .

APRIL

the month where ibu decided that Amni should no longer stay at our place. )): it was a hard month.. i mean, we've grown superbly close to Amni.

it is also the month where ITE starts. classmates got very close together. and btw, it's only for a short period of time, pfft.

i also start working at Ivic.

Since we miss Amni so much, ibu and I went to polyclinic to see him. Step i go check doctor. -_-

MAY

may was fine, i guess. celebrated Ibu and Ayah birthday.

had this little kenduri & Amni came over. ((:

Sharul thought that his beg were too big and he need a smaller beg. so we went over to Harley Davidson and he bought his beg there. -_-

had a gathering with ex-tampinesians (:

also, celebrated Ezah's birthday in school. She was shocked by our impromptu planning.

& we girls get super close together.

until which Suriana started working at Ivic.

JUNE

kak iqah also started working at Ivic.

Since Om y, mak nyanya and ibu yah is leaving for Haj, we had this Kenduri. Cik Lani bring Amni along. ((:

It's also Raihan's birthday. we suprise him by asking the Seould Garden's staffs to sing him birthday song and also bringing in birthday cake to our table. hahaha. He should and MUST appreciate us. :D

had a class gathering.

met up with long lost friend, Rabi'atul!

and for the most important thing.. first time meeting kak lynn. ((:

and this is Sharul (:

JULY

july, july... i came across this guy in the bus who looks like Sharul. i cant blame myself cause he is the one who keeps looking at me (: look at his side burn. and also the shirt he is wearing is the one i bought for Sharul.... cute kan?!

accompanied kak iqah to do her spray-ing and stuffs at parkway.

and had our normal random outing together. without along . ):

and also with mona. oh i miss going out with her!

AUGUST

this month, i quarelled alot with Sharul. everything seems to be wrong. no, everything i do or say seems to be wrong. but anyhoo...

me and classmates got real close. in terms of school only.

we also had this random meet up. went for shisha. raihan and iqbal tagged along.

bought a new shoe online and im loving it !

o level starts ~

it's also Mia's birthday. i bought her a split tshirt which she wanted soo bad.

SEPTEMBER

visited tampines sec cause it's teachers day. how i miss the teachers alot. it is so sad that i didnt get to meet mr shahril. ):

celebrated cik na's and mia's birthday at nenek place. mona and i look for birthday cakes and we finally decide to buy the ice cream cake from he royals. sedap giler laa oi!

since it's fasting month, so get ready for alot of outings. firstly was with the girls. we had our dinner at pizza hut. plans to watch movie but we ended up chatting all the way. ha.

it's our 3rd anni. went over to eighteen chief to break our fast. after which head over to bedok reservouir to chill and then to .. some other places.

oh yes, not forgetting, Andin Daniyal was born! ((:

and baba got his licence!!

OCTOBER

it's Hari Raya !

classmates and I went to Gardens to follow our seniors who is actually doing their project. -_-

Ayah was working at Jb. so we went back and forth every weekend just to visit him .

aspernormal, girlfriends meeting for almost every week.

and boyfriend bring me jalan2 at last bring to Bernie's Bar at Esplanade.

NOVEMBER

had the last paper for o levels. finally. -_- november flew so fast. i cant recall what happened as i didnt blog much. all i can remember was that i school and work...boring life...

met up with Iz and the gang to celebrate Nani's birthday.

DECEMBER

getting closer with yanah and kak lynn. meeting them almost everyday cause since boyfriend pirorities friends first, so should i ((: so, we had picnic together . and we are planning for Kak Lynn birthday which falls on 3rd Jan. coincide with Mas's birthday. hmm.

had cousin outing. we went for shisha and abang blanje. (:

lastly, another year over and im still deeply in love with this ass.

2009-12-24T23:21:00.001+08:00

it sucks when all he thinks about were the feelings of his friends and not mine. or worst, not his mumi.

2009-12-24T23:19:00.003+08:00

GIRLFRIENDS part 1 picnic yesterday, 23rd Dec. Next will be 2nd Jan. (More photos @ FB)

Since my bill hit 500+, all plans had to be cancel. So as to reduce spending. ):

2009-12-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

Never allow someone to be your priority while you're just their option.

2009-12-23T00:37:00.001+08:00

a mixture of cousins and friends.
the reason why i portray a happy face.

sometimes i wonder if this is going to continue until his release.
im afraid.
very afraid.

2009-12-19T00:27:00.001+08:00

i miss this stupid idiot.

2009-12-03T09:23:00.003+08:00

and here is a little somthing..

please focus on Mia.. that cute girl is funny. and and at 01.50!!!! both of us actually forgot that its a video. so there's a short pause. and she thought that the laptop is stuck or something. hehehehe.

Publish Post

2009-12-03T08:47:00.002+08:00

morning cupcakes..& monkey. whichwvwe catogary you choose..

yesterday went to coffeebean mainly to get aikha's laptop to a fix. and suddenly, some indian guy just shout "watch you mouth" and smash the glass. the girl tried to splash the water at him but he manage to get the glass and smash it again. the small pieces of glass flew and when it was about to hit my eye, i elak! like oh my gawd. kindly read this in a slangish bitchy way) and so it hit my back. got a slight cut. kak iqah's beg and selua are all in a mess. thanks guys. (!)the security came to ask to investigate futhur and stuff. asked if wanna make police report. aiyoo. then what shall i write in the report? -_-

about PM1.......we change the whole project. and we are suppose to handin by today? but we talked to mrs k yesterday. so we got extra time, hopefully if the ms haj and ms ida allow. haiya...

ill post again soon, but currently, my computer broke down. and yeah, no computer till....the computer is fixed? OBOK MAN WHERE ARE YOU???

2009-12-01T20:19:00.002+08:00

it sucks alot when you're in the office, feeling super cold and somebody beside you is showing off tantrums. so what if you're rimas or what-so-ever. aku pon ngah rimas. stupid boy who only thinks of himself. HERH, asshole!

2009-12-01T14:47:00.002+08:00

currently, im in class. ETP. and talking about PM1 project done, we have our part 2. and it's doing survery. since i have 5 in a group and we actually have to give this survey to 30 people, each of us will have to look for 6 people each. and i have a few people in mind. wanie, who is getting married in February. kak marlia, who is going through a long-term relationship. kak lyn, who is suppose should be getting married cause, she's ageing. :P and yanah, no reason. lol. now, i need 2 more people. damn~

k skarang hazirah tengah stress.. pasal she said question dier smuer "BANYAK SEYY!!"
and naqiah is actually sms-ing with a guy next door. *roll eyes* hehehe... senyom senyom...biol. and ader laa satu budak niih sblah aku.................. "ek, pasal niih pon kau nak?...kau nak..?" hmm.. k ape dier bbl ekk? 0.o? and now she's laughing like a crazy MonKey ~ hehe.

sorry guys. (:

2009-12-01T10:13:00.005+08:00

i had photo taking session with kak lyn and yanah again.. this time round, sharul and kamil join us slacked. (:

had aikha's lappy with me now. wanted to edit on the videos. but her lappy got virus so i have to clear everything and help her "fight" the virus. now, it's okei. just left to reboot it. lol! and know what? after i moved our project file, when i tried to open it, it's all gone. IT'S ALL GONE! so.. aku rajinkan diri aku untok buat balik....o.0

okei laa, for more pikas, kindly click on the picture below. (:

2009-12-01T10:11:00.001+08:00

i hope what he said is going to be true. and not just words. sweet words.

2009-11-30T15:48:00.000+08:00

i must take this final opportunity.

2009-11-28T13:34:00.000+08:00

after much persuasion to baby love, he finally agrees to go watch New Moon! ((: bought it online straightaway. takot dier tuka pkran. hehe!

i cant wait for monday cause kak yanah will transfer me money. so i can order. and we can get the items were eyeing! woooh !

actually, i got nothing to update. my life is plain boring nowadays. school, work, project. ERGH~

not forgetting, yana's birthday is coming. and we're coming out with something surprising for her. hoho. will update about it on the last day of school alright? ((:

2009-11-21T20:20:00.003+08:00

hey. im at work. (: can log in internet but sadness, no facebook!

haiya, sharul wants take up another job. and idont have a say seyy....

2009-11-21T14:55:00.003+08:00

i miss blogging alot. as far as i can remember, i used to blog almost everyday. renting almost everything that i can think of. but this year, i had been super busy. with schools assignment, o levels which had just past and work. im collecting money for my prec next feb. which is 3 more months to go. i really wanted to take motor. but after Is and Ahmad said that i'll have more class if i drive, i had a second thought. but when i asked ibu if it's possible for her to change the weekend car to daily. and she said if im willing to pay, can. wah~ therefore, i've decided to take motor instead. (:

PM1 project have not been going on smoothly. but i'll chill. i dont want to force them to finish up this crap and stuff. let them be. and for all i care, ill just edit the videos. ergh. im so glad that ETP's project is done. next project coming up, role play. for SVE. *slaps forhead*

and now, my cliques are stucked with "when i say jump you said how high" and no, im not agreeing to them that i started this nonsence. :P

i miss tampines sec and sistic. ):

when i said done you said HOORAY!

DONE!

2009-11-20T08:36:00.001+08:00

WHATEVER OKEI!

2009-11-11T08:05:00.008+08:00

honestly, not updating my blog is because of projects. well, not only my entrepreneurship module. but also my project management module. which obviously, is having some conflicts. -_-
well im not gonna elaborate of how stupid some people can be by pointing the fingers at the wrong direction.

getting along well with new phone . (: today, i found out that i can go to inbox, outbox, sent items and draft folder ! well... in my phone, the sent items and inbox is like a conversation. so it really save spaces. hmm.. i don't know how to explain it. -_-

last friday, gather with Iskandar and all to celebrate Nani's birthday. ate at sempang. we planned to bowl at kallang. but when we reach kallang, there's corporate playing. should be celebrating their anniversary or something. so we drove back to safra tampines. there's also no lane available. we drove to pasir ris ehub and sadly, there were 24 on the waiting list. last2, slack coffeebean. -_-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANI ~!
may your wish comes true and lead a wonderful life ahead. (:

the next day, was supposed to do the PM project. but we couldnt find any "father" and also since zulaikha is not coming, there wasn't any camera. and again, that somebody has to text simpolan binte simpolan that it's irritating to cancel at the last minute. memang ar kalau aku pon aku ngamok siol. abea da tade items/orng needed per. kalau kau nak continue, continue without me ar. aku tanak waste time lagkk.. -_-

watched paranormal activities with Baba Love ~
shiiiiooookkkk seyyy.. but i dont understand why others say it's boring .. cool per the story.....

here's the story.. we planned to go to orchard ion. but this somebody dont know how to go. well, we were very near. like one turn away only! but he keeps going same way. we even reached commonwealth!! so we went to marina sq instead. since it's only 1+, and paranormal activities was actually at 4.30, baby said, okei let;s try going again. then last2, we go bugis to watch the 5.20 show. -_- terserempak with suffian. he was going to watch the same show as us. but our seats were far apart. after the show, we try to go orchard again. when stopped at traffic light, i ask a taxi driver for directions. he even said it clearly to turn ALL THE WAY right after the next traffic light. this clever boy go straight after turning right!!!!! -____- so we went back to tampines, top up his fuel and went to pasir ris park. that's when he called his cousins to slack at coffee bean.

when they reached, we talked mainly about 21 dec 2012. scary laa seyy. abng apit even shows us some videos like lion rawring Allah. sejadah praying by itself and many more.

today, i didn't go school as there will be having science paper 1 and guess what. ITS MY LAST PAPER !! okei for o level only. this friday ICA test. -_-

2009-10-29T15:00:00.008+08:00

fuuhhh . it's been long ehk? busy laa... hehehe. no, actually, since my blog is private, i'm lazy to update. lol. anyways, here i am! so HEY everybody ~

had the usual wednesday night with yanah and kak lynn. we storied about alot of thing. they really take my thoughts away for a moment. im glad i had friends like them.

last fri- HortPark&BotanicGarden; mempersilakan click the picture to view more photos. (:

on the Mon; english paper was dumb. paper 1 questions were shit. and when i got idea of what to write, im left with 15 minutes. paper 2 was easy as well. just that, summary i exceeded. if there were to give me one more chance to do the paper again, just like ITE, i would wanna retake !

after which, family and I went to Johor to send ayah off. will be going there again this coming week end. im spending my weekends going johor everyweek. *slaps forhead!*

this coming monday will be chem paper. and yeah, im not ready. have 3 more days to revise. SHIT!

on top of that, abng fathul is marrying this monday ! like SOOOO fast. it seems like ibu just told me yesterday that he's getting marry. and now, it's NEAR !!!!! aww, somebody is getting married ! ((:

oh yes! suriana bought me a devine ring made of blue coral ~

random photos (:

2009-10-10T13:33:00.005+08:00

the pictures of jalan raya with the budakmerepek .. ((: more photos with Iqbal. so stay tune yeah?

BTW.. iqbal amir and yat got the job at IVIC. which means, more reason to work. ((:

went out with baby yesterday. bought myself a charles&keith bag @ $59.90. tried to look for the previous lady who were at the counter before me cause i wanna borrow her membership card. but too bad she already walk off. NABEH! hehehe.

after which, we head to Bernie's bar @ East Coast. had a drink which baby ordered for me. and i dont know what the hell it is. but it cost $10++.okei it's a bar. so shut. chill for awhile before going to Parkway Parade. please enlighten me why most of the shops there were close at 10?! if i were to go to tampMall, the shops there will still be open! grab ourselves homemade ice cream. i have chocoMint and boyfriend had chocolate. ((:

(jangan tnyr asal mate aku terbeliak. .. )

off to kampong to chill before going some other places. (((((:

forget about your boyfriend
and meet me at the hotel room
you can bring your girlfriend
and meet me at the hotel room

2009-10-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

100 things to know about women..click here!

im taking those that interest me. and (sort of) true.

96. Jewelry. Now you always know what to get her for a last-minute gift.

89. A girl would prefer to get a $100 gift from Tiffany & Co. than a $500 gift from K-Mart. Why? Because her friends will ask where she got it.

83. Women always want to believe what you’re saying is true.

82. What do women really want in bed? More blankets. They get colder than men.

80. If women have an excuse to take a pill, they’ll take it.

79. Never trust the woman who gives you the best BJ you’ve ever had.

76. She hates your Xbox more than she lets on. Blow her off for some gaming and she’ll soon stop wasting time on a dork like you.

74. “Girls who buy their men lap dances and pretend to enjoy it are kidding themselves. They’re trying to keep him happy with some controlled freedom.”—Amanda, 31

72. During emergencies, women are likely to remain calmer than men. Though it should be noted that inventing minor crises on a weekly basis gives them more practice.

70. Unless they’re lesbians, she won’t approve of your hanging out with other girls. Even if they’re ugly. And, really, even if they’re lesbians.

69. If you have something to hide, she’ll find it.

66. They can't live without tension. Every once in a while she's gonna pick a fight with you for no reason. Accept this as a running, inevitable theme and your relationship will make a lot more sense.

65. The most painless way to end an argument: Let her win.

61. When a woman tells you her problems, she does not want you to offer solutions.

52. Despite always complimenting another woman’s short haircut, she secretly celebrates having one less competitor, since men prefer long hair.

51. Don’t call her “cute.” In her mind it’s the same as “not vomit-inducing.” “Sexy,” OK. “Hot,” yes. “Fucking fine,” only if she’s at least slightly buzzed.

41. If she suddenly cuts her hair short, it might mean she no longer cares what you think of her. But that doesn’t mean she doesn’t care about someone else’s opinion.

39. It never hurts to say you're sorry, even if you don't mean it.

38. Let her beat you at something once in a while—poker, chess, Ping-Pong—and she’ll be more likely to give you what you want, like some peace and quiet.

30. “Don’t caress our faces while we’re kissing, unless you really, really, really like us.”—Rachel, 26

27. Gain her trust when you’re out by calling her at 10 P.M. She’ll go to bed content you’re thinking of her, even if you’re slurping Jell-O shots off some strippers’ cleavage.

23. Every woman is self-conscious about her ass. Tell her you love her ass and you’ll see it more often.

21. More than half of surveyed females between 18 and 25 would prefer to be run over by a truck than be fat.

20. All women think they’re smarter than their partners in some significant way.

18. Once in a while, let her pick the movie and don't complain about it.

15. Girls don’t want to date doormats. So make her proud and refuse to give up bowling night with the guys.

9. The minute she decides she’s even mildly interested in you, she starts making mental pictures of what your kids would look like and imagining her first name with your last.

3. The one breakup line she’ll never be able to argue you out of: “I’m sorry, but I no longer have feelings for you.”

2. Buying a present for your girl? She’ll hate it (and you) if she finds out you took along another woman to help pick it out.

2009-10-07T22:31:00.002+08:00

I know no matter what we will be together (cum what may). We will Insya'allah. Because nobody would ever have a love like us. :) Constant fights everyday does not mean that we detest each other. I guess our relationship is stronger than others because we fight and argue and learn how to deal with it. Tough. This relationship is a challenge for us and I would never want to lose it. I love Him. I love Sharul. Yes and he will be the only man that I will ever love. Ever. I will not stop missing and most importantly Never stop loving. Because he said that he is going to marry me and I will do the same. I will marry him. I will. We will share our future no matter what people say. Because this love is just me and him. My first and last love. The only person I will ever be patient with. I love him with all my heart.I love him! I love him...

aku fickle minded. tau. scrap that previous post. of course i want him to follow ! TSK!

2009-10-07T20:16:00.000+08:00

its either ME or HIM . i dont care .

2009-10-07T19:55:00.002+08:00

he said im irritating. asking him stupid questions.

we were suppose to stop at joo chiat, withdrew money, looked for nenek's juba before going to onan road to buy some karipap. we stopped at onan road. i asked him why did he stop? he said buy karipap first nothing wrong what. he dont get the picture. i dont have any cash with me. thats why. and he's angry for that. bought some karipap. and i said. ba, i nak makan. then he give me his dirty look and said "argh nanti dekat sane boleh makan laa". in the end, i ate non.

we were on the bike. i said "ba raihan called ajak lepak tau".. he ignored me. when at joo chiat, i said again. and he asked where. i said i dont know. later in the lift, he called iqbal and said we're coming over. so i told him, "i dont want to balik lambat know". he shouted at me "tadkk kate nak lepak?!" so i shouted back "aku cakap raihan ajak lepak bukan aku nak lepak" and he laughed at me.

on the bike, i was talking to iqbal on the phone. but he kept asking me what what what... i said im talking to iqbal. then he shouted at me to open my viser. and when i shout back i said im talking to iqbal laa. he got angry for being rude to him.

after slacking, i said i wanna have some puffs for awhile. he said ar later can laa. he stopped at my house. and expect to smoke there? stupid.

when im talking to him, he went off. without kissing me goodbye. without even looking back to wave at me. i dont know why but my heart dropped for a moment and i cried. i dont know why. i feel so.. fucked up. by his attitude nowadays. i just dont understand him anymore.

when i ask for a break up just now. he asked to fuck off and die. like i mean nothing to him. nothing at all.

FINALLY !

2009-10-07T14:50:00.002+08:00

farid upload the pictures ! click for more!

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF

2009-10-07T11:52:00.003+08:00

baby's buying me a new helmet today! passed him the design of my name and he's off with his dad to make the sticker. woot woot ! next time you see, make sure to check out ma name. and if you're wondering of who did the design. it's my used to be tutor, Marlia. or in short, Maya. if you're wondering how much it cost, get her number from me and she'll explain the price. it varies from design and colours. (:

ceyy promoting ekk.

gonna buy nenek's pressy later on but however, only kak illa transfer me. -_- still waiting for the rests. im wondering if i should go before 7 or after 7. tuition laa babe. today no work. tired laa everyday work. da macm robot plak. hehehe.

2009-10-06T09:54:00.008+08:00

it's been so very long since i update this blog. well, no more publicy lead to laziness. so anyway.. raya had come. and is going soon. had fun.. well, okei okei laa. went out with baby's friends. is and all. but plans with ITE mates cock up. so we end up cancelling our plan. aww... sad isn't it?

for more photos, please click on the photos below.

more photos will be up soon. waiting for farid to upload it at the computer. ((:

and also, will be going out with raihan all on thursday. and tps friends on sunday.

and did i mention about my pay being short? yes. short of $60. and they still yet to pay my $15. if next mnth im not going to get my $75, im sooooo goonaa complain to elaine. see what she'll do. nabeh.

nenek's birthday is coming this 14th Oct. sharing money with the cousins. and we will be buying nenek a very nice juba. okei.. maybe get it 2 or something. will be buying it with kak illa tomorrow. so.. hopefully they pass the money by today. (:

till we meet again guys.

3rd year baybeh!

2009-09-19T02:28:00.006+08:00

i decided to tell him about his friend on our 3rd year anni. well, basically. i think it's the right time to not keep anything from him. besides, it totally let me get this burden off my chest . but then, i felt more guilty.

#01 i destroy their friendship
#02 his friend dont even mean what he did

haiz. anyway.. we went to eat at eighteenchef at yishun. lucky we did not get lost. however, when otw from yishun, we were lost. baby laa! ask go diff way, he go diff way. haha. texted him a long text message apologizing of the way i behaved. thank him for what he had done for me. and stuffs.

and it somehow amused me how he changed a lil of his attitude towards me. he is much more bubbly. he jokes around with me. and he's not angry when im angry. he pujok me! that's my baby. hey, i miss him. gonna call him for awhile.

today is the last day of puase. and im so not ready. i mean, i dont quite feel the puase. im not sure if it's because im too busy. but oh well. im sitting for my o lvls AGAIN. so, dont think we will be going out often as mia is having PSLE as well. im just glad that im not schooling- able to push all my shifts to morning. ((:

to all muslims all over the world, selamat hari raya aidilfitri. maaf zahir dan batin. yerlaa, kalau yana tersilap kate ke. terkasa kate ke. termelebeh ke. over the top ke. dan sewaktu dengannyer laa. yana susun 20 jari mintak ampon laa banyak2. insya'Allah tak buat lagkk. ((: on a happy note, YAY YAY BESOK RAYE !

2009-09-17T00:57:00.000+08:00

As the twelfth and final sign of the occidental zodiac, Pisceans make comfortable followers. Pisces people don't find their direction easily. They are not self-propelled and they feel a certain distance from the rest of the human race. When things don't go their way, Pisceans may surrender to self-pity.

Pisces is the soul of sensitivity. Nothing escapes his notice. The faint rustle of a falling leaf that kisses the earth sounds, to a Pisces, like a huge truck smashing into a brick wall. Baby's whimpering in his crib is, to a hyper-susceptible Pisces, the wail of a thousand hungry infants. Pisces is born this way. Overly, tenderly, pricklingly, unrestrainedly sensitive. Pisceans tend toward all that is beautiful, gravitate to loveliness and crave the artistic. Pisceans are the sleepy, languorous, irresistible creators of whom we frequently don't hear a syllable. Not power-hungry, Pisceans are mostly humble and modest about achievements. They are not interested in fame. If fortune comes their way, they'll accept it. But Pisceans usually don't go after glory.

Pisceans are very proud people. They are not cocky, nor do they go around boasting of their conquests and masterpieces. Pisceans are easygoing and seem to be made of butter. Ask them to move an inch left because they're blocking your view. Without a word, Pisces shifts to the left. Suggest a new way of eating snails with a shovel. Pisces is right up there in the front of the queue, raring to please and adjust to whatever is required. But dare to challenge Pisces's deepest beliefs, disagree with his sense of taste or the spiritual tenet by which he lives, and the fish may well turn into a shark before your rapidly blinking peepers. Pisceans have profound personal integrity.

It's not uncommon for Pisceans to suffer. First, they are easily hurt. Secondly, they are afflicted with overwhelming self-doubt. Worldly accomplishment is beyond Pisces because it requires a firm connection to hard reality, which Pisces would rather avoid. Tough and ruthless competitors disguised as friendly warmhearted colleagues or companions may hoodwink the earnest Piscean and leave him beside himself in a heap of disappointment and bafflement. He doesn't handle tactics or strategics well. He wants to remain aloof so he can dream and imagine and let his mind wander.

You can be sure to find Pisceans wherever the water is. Pisceans love the soothing silence of water and will go to great lengths to plunge themselves into anything from a stream to an ocean, a bathtub or a Jacuzzi.

Pisceans take all emotional involvement seriously. Whether it's a love affair or a friendship, a child-parent relationship or some other family tie, you can be sure Pisces will nurture the link. The Pisces person loves unconditionally will alter viewpoints or swim willingly in the opposite direction just to please a loved one. If you are enamored of a Pisces, grab your snorkel and flippers and paddle after your fish to the ends of the sea.

eww, dont hold me! you're disgusting!

2009-09-14T18:11:00.004+08:00

this few days. he is being an irritating jerk. he asked me for a break up yet talked to me nicely the next day. after awhile, he will start his nonsence again. this go on and on and on. and when i said something, he would scold me. like fuck all kelua. who am i exactly? his fucking sister? his fucking friends? he calls me stupid etc. yesterday went to slack with an, but at first i said, since it's only raihan, why not we slack together only. then he said no. like literally no. he said he dont want two of us alone. but tomorrow is our anniversary. and he asked me to fuck off today. i asked him to work today. cause you know. when the clock strikes 12, we're together. that kindda thing. he said okei yesterday. but today, he said he's lazy. know why? cause he wants to meet his fucking friends who dont have a fucking life. fucking morons. two days in a row he asked for a break up. well, whatever loser. this is what you want, dont come back running like a dog to me. cause i wont give you bone but ill throw your shit, fucker!

wake up call

2009-09-13T15:26:00.003+08:00

you don't buy me flowers, you don't drive me anywhere but totally insane. we used to talk for hours until the night was through. but recently your ego is going to the roof. maybe you need a wake up call because you're too comfortable. i seems like i got to do wrong, to get your attention. i think i gonna have to cheat, to keep your eyes on me. but maybe if i make you jealous, you'll finally start to wake up. you're taking me for granted.

2009-09-10T00:30:00.009+08:00

so today went out with gfs to buka lua. well.. we plan to go lau pa sat. then chill at clarke quey. then we changed plan. went to pizzahut and was thinking of watching dance flick. then we changed our mind to watch darah! and then...darah was not screen at marina. -_- so in the end we chilled at rooftop. then, we moved and chill outside of the cityhall mrt station. talked about something/someone. hahaha.

anyway, we camwhored abit. check out the photos. but some is with aikha. and i wonder when will she upload it in the computer. -_- gonna force her real soon. wakaka !

2009-09-07T09:48:00.003+08:00

oh my bad. i forgot to post about the new member of the family, Andin Danial Andin Khairullah!

yesterday, we went to JB to look for the raya clothes, etc. and and i found my denim jacket!! but i didn't get to buy my mascara. and i bought a kebaya. and it's in pink. okei, so not me. but yeah. pink. -_-

2009-09-05T00:54:00.016+08:00

yes beybeh! computer da boleh pakai! all thanks to kak iqah. hee ! now, can upload everything i wanna upload. now must make sure fir ibu or mia dont use too much space. aiya.

next monday is soo the BEV exam. and guess what, i dont know what's the topic for chapter 4 all the way to chapter 8! and i've forgotten whatever is taught from chapter 1-3! nabeh. sure fail. repeat 6 mnths. god dammit. now, let's think.. whose book am i gonna borrow. which reminds me of. . iqbal or hafiz !!

im lucky that i save my pikas to another computer before rebooting. now, must take extra precaution. must save all photos at photobucket. but it's soo troublesome ! aiya!

tomorrow am suppose to go out with masnah's cousins. but my money in the bank only left with 47 bucks! and i still gotta take out atleast 20 for my denim jacket and yanah's denim jacket. and since it's fasting mnth. ibu had been cutting my allowance from 50 bucks to 10 bucks per week ! and my pay will only be in in 30 more days.

of which, our 3rd year anni is coming. and i dont have any fucking money to spend on that day. he already said that he's not going to fork out all the money himself. duit minyak lain.. ceyy, mentang2 da ader license moto. ngeh.

so anyway anyway anyway... on the 31st aug, celebrate cik lina's and mia's birthday (again) .... bought them the royals cake. ice cream oi. i loike ! somebody buy me that cake next time okei? well.. it's not as if anybody would read this blog. but who knows.. as time pass, i might publicize this blog again.. hmm..

next up: the monkey's birthday! another shout out. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYS!
well, i met up with idah at tamp inter. and went to city hall to look for the cakes. bf makes a fuss cause im loso. actually he's irritated cause he's confused. bleah. after he eat, he cools. *roll eyes for 5 secs* we went for bowling. haha. yeah, it's funny cause most of don't know how to bowl! and sharul keeps saying that i bowl as if i wanna destroy the alley or pecahkan the bowling ball into 2 -_- and when i strike, he said i tyco. whatever. atleast i don't bowl like hafiz, i.e monyet. and farhan, i.e nak rembat orng.

computer broke down. ):

2009-09-04T13:13:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey..

my computer broke down. and i do not have any other computer that has internet. most prolly ill ask kak iqah or mona to bring their laptop over to coffeebean to update all this shits. hahaha.

guess what people, baby pass his TP ! oh yes. but he still haven't bring me around Singapore yet. motocycle with ayah cause he needs it for interview. -_- cause if the "interviewer" sees that he has a big moto, they won't hire him. -_- i know.

so, im waiting patiently. he promises to make me the first pillion. let's see. ((:

2009-08-31T00:51:00.002+08:00

im sitting here trying to convince myself that youre not the one for me. but the more i think, the less i believe it and the more i want you here with me. i look around my room and everything i see reminds me of you. and i didnt mean to meet you then, we were just kids. and i didnt mean to give you chills, the way that i kiss. and i didnt mean to fall in love, but i did. and you didnt mean to love me back but i know you did.

t'cher day

2009-08-30T16:54:00.006+08:00

god! when will it actually stop raining? we had to use cupboard when we were going back home from workplace. tak glam ar. but i dont want to fall sick seyy. hee !

tomorrow is teacher's day and i still dont know what to get for cikgu hamisah, mdm low! mr shahril! oooh how i miss them..glad that mr fathul not there any longer. wakak!

i bought that dress! yes. so now i know what to wear this coming tuesday! and also 9sept. but im still wondering what to wear on 5th and 17th.. hmm.......

anyway... will be breaking fast at nenek's place today as today is cik na's birthday. so we sort of have a full family gathering. heehhe. tapi part terawih jekk ader lenget sikit ar. khekhekhe..

here are some long long pikas.

i cooked mee siam, bbq prawn and also sambal goreng. how bout that? and i dont know my motive in taking this pictures.

2009-08-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

i met him for a while just now. to accompany him buy the buka stuffs. while i get myself the dengdeng.

we sat at the pondok near-by. he asked about khaliesah. tho he knows that it's raihan who text her. he scolded me. like. ergh, whatever.

one more thing. i asked.. why everyday go kampong? ader siape? he said.. gerek. ader kawan. okei, so aku tak gerek. and aku bukan teman. HERH!

2009-08-29T13:36:00.002+08:00

i've planned to wear this when we went out together to celebrate our 3rd anni. when i asked alot of people how i look, well.. they compliment me. but when i asked him. he said, it's okei.

this is not the first time. everytime when we met up to go somewhere in any case, he will always said that this doesn't suit laa. it looks nonsense laa. " i tot u wanna dress up? "

it hurts a lil bit. but after a while. i get used to his disses. but later i tot.. why didn't he compliment me any more? that's it. it answered to all my questions.

im going to buy this dress no matter what. which i will buy later on monday. *wide grins!* im wearing it with the denim jacket that ill buy next mnth i guess. and drMartin's the which i will buy in the following month. ((: